Hello, everyone or anyone, This is the start of my blogging journey, I’m trying to get used to WordPress and blogging. So please be patient with me. I hope to share the experiences and insights I have gained from navigating life with a diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia.
In 1997 at the age of 18 years old, I had a life-changing event, this event led to my worldview and perceptions being shattered and subsequently led me to receiving a diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia. Being a mixed-race male growing up in a small countryside town in England had its challenges growing up, ones I thought I was dealing with very well. Believing I knew myself and my worldview (That of being a strong-minded Athiest, believer of science and self above all), thinking I knew who, what I was and wanted (and if so egotistically having little fear of anything or anyone) I went from being a strong-minded, strong-willed focused young man, to being in a constant state of fear and paranoia. I was so scared of “hallucinations” encompassing auditory, visual and sensory, that I was too scared to keep my eyes open and too scared to keep them closed. I would try to fall asleep with hands over my eyes being so delirious, with logic or the hope that if I kept my eyes open but covered that the visions would not be able to manifest.
Now approaching 3 decades on, my situation fluctuates, but having a much more fluid approach to “reality” and a gentle grip on self, I am navigating life to where I am now studying towards a degree in Psychology, working for the NHS as an expert by experience delivering mental health training to mental health staff, and a whole lot more.
Thank you for reading this far and welcome to my website.
Earl
May you know Happiness.
May you know Wellbeing.
May you know Love.
May you know Peace.
