About me
be a human being, not a human doing
I Am….
I am…
powerful words to put before a sentence. In that case, I am a human being before all else. I am a male of mixed race. I am a creative spirit, making my way through life, as best I can.
My name is Earl, a blogger based in Wiltshire England, blogging about my journey through having a diagnosis of schizophrenia and sharing some of my experiences, perceptions and conclusions on this unfolding journey.
Blog Posts
Here you will find a series of posts documenting some of my experiences, thoughts and feelings on various issues. Please take a look through my eyes as I see the world.
Services
I am a creative soul, I like to create art, music poetry and can do so as a service. Also a keen meditator and through having mental health issues for all my adult life, I am in a unique position to share insights with all interested.
What I blog about
My Story
In 1997 at the age of 18 years old, I had a life-changing event, this event led to my worldview and perceptions being shattered and subsequently led me to receiving a diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia. Being a mixed-race male growing up in a small countryside town in England had its challenges growing up, ones I thought I was dealing with very well. Believing I knew myself and my worldview (That of being a strong-minded Athiest, believer of science and self above all), thinking I knew who, what I was and wanted (and if so egotistically having little fear of anything or anyone) I went from being a strong-minded, strong-willed focused young man, to being in a constant state of fear and paranoia. I was so scared of “hallucinations” encompassing auditory, visual and sensory, that I was too scared to keep my eyes open and too scared to keep them closed. I would try to fall asleep with hands over my eyes being so delirious, with logic or the hope that if I kept my eyes open but covered that the visions would not be able to manifest.
Now approaching 3 decades on, my situation fluctuates, but having a much more fluid approach to “reality” and a gentle grip on self, I am navigating life to where I am now studying towards a degree in Psychology, working for the NHS as an expert by experience delivering mental health training to mental health staff, and a whole lot more.
Thank you for reading this far and welcome to my website.
Earl
May you know Happiness.
May you know Wellbeing.
May you know Love.
May you know Peace.